I am collecting little bits of me.
I don't know who will need to know it.
But I know putting this out their out of me is where it needs to be.
We are what we think. All that we are arises with our thoughts. With our thoughts, we make the world. --Buddha
I am collecting little bits of me.
I don't know who will need to know it.
But I know putting this out their out of me is where it needs to be.
I don't know what is going on in my head, my life. It feels lonely and I am not sure where I am heading any more.
I have never feel this depressed ever before and I feel all my life choices have led me to this place where I am all alone. It is a difficult thing to keep going on in life with this thought that no-one loves me and never has.
I can't sort out if these feeling are real or part of life changes as I am growing older. Some times I think I am confirming these thoughts by not having any one to talk to. I have never lived in my head so much. But I seem to not move on from this feeling of no happiness.
And I hate my job to top it all - not sure my feeling are consequences of the job or the dislike of my job is the consequence of my feelings.
And on top of that I am not feeling physically well either. God what is happening in life.
What is the difference between letting things come to you and trying to achieve something
Is it ok to push yourself to be better, to try to do the best in everything you do. To find the issues and problems to solve. The world, people set expectations and define boundaries in which we have to perform and live in. I know I have always pushed the boundaries and I think that has what has gotten me where I am now. But I think even when the there are best of intentions there is heartbreak and disappointment and the feeling of being let down, when they are not reciprocated with appreciation. Then there are times when
I never thought that conflict between trying to always do better and be better
so maybe the problem is the expectations at the end. But I am not sure how much more detached I can be.
I started a new job last week... Went to a new city, well more like a town. I picked up this book there and it has wonderful words to live by.